想念和怀念

时间过得真快，都快三个星期了><
5月6日是芭蕾舞的考试，持续一个星期多
很意外的是我有机会可以帮上忙，当然我自己也有考试
那时院长找我帮忙放歌时，我犹豫了很久而且也试过找了很多理由推辞
到最后还是乖乖去做了
在考试的前一天，也就是大选日5月5日，整个晚上就一直对着电视看结果
紧张紧张! 不过...还是失望了
成绩出后，我的紧张依然没有减少因为第二天就是考试了
毕竟我要面对的是外国考官，好怕自己应付不来
晚上快快选好要穿的衣服，不可以失礼。也确认好要带的东西齐全
终于！闹钟响了！！紧张又来了。我赶快准备好就出门
到了考场后，看见我的学生已经在练习和准备了
我陪着他们练习，紧张感慢慢地减少
考试时间到！全部都到考场门外等后
心想考官应该很凶吧，态度会好吗？
一进去，我被她的热情吓到了
她向我问好，握手，问我的名字，还说"nice to meet you"
那时，我的紧张感真的彻底消失
而且她很有气质！人很高
她的名字~ Ilara Lopes, 巴西来的
无时无刻她脸上都挂着笑容
我和她相处的时间从早到下午
就这样一起了一个星期多
她是一个喜欢与别人分享事情的人，待人友善
整个学院的人都很喜欢她
每天见面她都问我好吗？有休息吗？睡好吗？真的很温馨
从院长那里听了考官的故事后很同情她
她和她的姐姐一直以来相依为命，很不幸的她的姐姐在去年去世了，剩下她一个
这让我更加的珍惜我和她相处的时间
到了考试的最后一天，最后的考试结束后，我站了起来转向她
我看到的竟然是她伸开了她的双手要拥抱我
我就走过去投入了她的怀抱，我真的好舍不得她T.T
过后我们也拍了照片留念 :)
当然，学生也全部顺利的考完试了
在考试的期间也突发发生了些事，不过我真的学到了很多
这是一个很好的经验！我不后悔我答应帮这个忙
我很庆幸^^

我和考官! 

学生准备考试

考试前拍张照

轮到我的组考试>.<

XD

今天很难得我一家人可以一起吃晚餐
而且还吃得那么开心
真的真的好久没有这样开心过了
自从搬下来后，我们一起用餐的机会简直就是很少
难得今天爸爸特地早放工带我们去吃大餐
在吃的时候，有说有笑
感觉很温馨，温暖
很享受在当下^^
最近我发现我可以开导别人，虽然只是一点点
但对我来说是一个很大的成就
我对她说的话，她都有听进去
她常常会来告诉我今天到底发生了什么事
有什么有趣的，搞笑的，伤心的
我就给了她一些意见，结果她真的有听进去！！！
就没有再那么悲观了
这真的让我觉得是小小成功
我很开心^^

Happy birthday my lovely pn.tai^^

happy birthday pn.tai^^生日快乐
祝老师永远健康与美丽
我很难过不能帮老师庆祝生日，
但是我还是有送上我的小小祝福
老师应该有收到吧？！
从中一到现在，一直很疼爱我们的您，
永远都照顾我们的您，
在我们最需要帮助的时候伸出援手的您，
我真的真的很爱你，老师！哈哈。。。
老师你可不能忘记我！！
要不然我会很伤心的T.T
老师，再次祝福你生日快乐！

*screaming*

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~
it so annoying me!!!
i think now is the time to let all the things go
especially is sad thing!!!
new year arrived and me is new of me
make me sad and make me happy also because of this!
so now dont think anymore, just focus on my SPM enough
fighting!

picture during holiday^^

two girls fight for one boy

mx,wy,jane,ys,me and peh

at orchid bistro XD

eat so much=.=

wy ask me curi take for her, but nice^^

manda's present

so sweet=P

four lengluis XD

two lengluiXD

ys face haha

cheers!

mx and peh

me manda yx

so cute the hat

jane me peh

see!

nose bleedXD

what she doing? =.=

scaryT.T

jane with one pig

me ys

big family^^

mx and me

school reopenT.T

long time didnt update my blog d, now update^^
H....A....I....H!!!
i dont want go back to school, i hate this year!
2012 is a stressful year for me because i'm sitting for SPM
wuoh~ SIJIL PELAJARAN MALAYSIA?! XD
STRAIGHT A? must pay more effort on it so i can accomplish my target!
but i know it is very hard, but i will try my best!
 form 5 d, 17 years old d, i'm a senior in school wahaha
so fast is my last year in my secondary school life>.<
i gonna miss my secondary life, especially when form 1 untill form 3 at TD2
hmm...now feel so moody...dont know why
because school reopen? holiday finish? spm?
ish...MOODY now!
change topic change topic...XD

erm i went back to selangor for one week when holiday
i hang out with my friends at aeon, can call jusco also hehe
new shopping centre at anggun
few of my friends working at there, jia you!
earn more money hahha
we took lunch at Restaurant Orchid Bistro
but i just ordered one apple juice
we spend almost two hours at the restaurant =.=
they saying joke, playing, eating, teasing each other
what a happy moment^^ miss that so much
after that we went Daiso Japan to buy manda's present
looking for the present around 15 minutes
at last i bought one pair of small cute cup
i went home and decorated it
hmm then my mum asked me to buy some vegetable and "tang yuan"
that time i felt like i'm a aunty shopping at pasar
take one basket walked here walked there
but luckily my friends accompanied me haha
then then then.....
back home d....anyway thx lam for fetching me =D

another wonderful day with my gang
AMANDA'S PARTY! erm... also christmas party i think
peh came my house at 6.45p.m then she took bath
she wore so pretty but me wore like normal
i faster asked my family whether got any nice clothes can borrow me
finally i found one!
then i walked with peh to manda's house
when i reached there, so many people eating d
is buffet! XD all the food are so delicious
yummy yummy^^
we chatting in manda's room {her room very big and nice}
playing in room...
manda opened the present one by one
finally is me and rachel present...she so touched when she saw the cup
the present is me and rachel bought for her=)
after that went downstairs watch tv
korean songs MV
SUPER JUNIOR!! KIM HYUN JOONG!! and more...*cant remember*
but sj and khj are the important one haha
but before 12a.m all my friends went back d=.=
i thought we can countdown together, who knows end up all went back d
haih...

ya, thats all!
i spend my one week holiday with my friends and family at selangor

now i 17 years old d, really sounds like old>.<
like big girl haha
but my appearance still like a form 2 or form 3 student LOL
many people also say so T.T
but cant change anything with my appearance haha
I'M 17 YEARS OLD IN 2012 IS THE FACT!
accept it ^^
i will nervous for my spm
dont know i can handle it well or not
i dont wanna disappoint my family and my teachers and friends too
i know my family hope i can get good result in spm like my pmr
it is a hard mission, i will try to do it!
if i cant get what u all want, please dont feel sad or dont be disappointed
because i have done my best!
i do well in my spm is all because of my future!
i hope i can have a brightly future!!!
my gang fighting together!!! jia you^^V

thanks for ur words ^^

            After i saw my beloved friend post something for me, i was like out of the blue.  Here is my 

reply and is also as my feeling after i see the post.

           

            Yesterday i also felt i very brave to write the post, but pn.tai's words really impressed me and  

i remembered till now, as the same thing, spm is count on our effort to study, no tiru or tips. now i

 see ur post also feel touchedT.T ya maybe i shifted here, and my brother not with us, so i need to

 take care my parents and learn to be independent. after my grandma pass away last year, my 

mum not happy like last time, and my father get sicked this year too, so i need to be discipline and 

responsible. starting i shift here, i really cant adapt the new school, new friends, new environment.

 everything is NEW for me. that time i dont happy at all, and i keep asking people whether i want 

to shift back or not. untill one day my mum explained to me, she said u shift here is already a 

truth, and since i born till now i 16 years old, i never live with my father before, its time to live with

 him and he is old d. From that second, i decided to stay here and dont think about going back and 

study with u all. i start to adapt the new environment. when the time i struggled want to go back, i

 almost everyday cry cry cry, my mum saw it. and i know if i shift back, my dad will feel sad. i dont

 want this to happen. i decided to let go everything in rawang. although sometimes i see u all go

 anywhere, i feel a bit sad and jealous, but now nothing d. u all can also do like what i did, maybe i 

face the thing earlier than u all. thx jane, i know 8 of u can do it too! u all are SMART!!!!!! fighting

 k? most of u actually is better than me much much much much more but always humble say no-.- i 

know u are!  straight A is waiting for u all next year haha! dont get stress ya=D

            This few days happened many things, i have so many feelings in my heart that i cant say

 out to anyone, so i use blog to express myself as well. My mood also change like wind, change so

 fast. many things annoying me, keep spinning in my head. but now is over, everything is settled.

 Hey girls,  what thing happened is happened, u cant do anything to change it. We should learn to 

let go the thing, i hope u all can live happily. i happy when i saw u say i matured and strong.

 thx...maybe ur words not important for other people, but is really touched for me and important.

            

              Ya, thats all for today. i was busy decorating my blog also haha^^